I cannot sleep a single second tonight. The atrocity of what I have done to myself have finally hit home… How did i let myself gain over 20 lbs and turning back to the fat pig I was before? I kept making excuses and straight out got too full of myself, after all, I kept thinking to myself, I have accomplished perfectly what others could only dream of. But here I am now, nothing but a huge, disgusting failure… How can I go back and show my fat ugly self to the same people who have witnessed me prance around so arrogantly in my tiny fit body before?
I hate my body, and I hate myself even more for letting it get this bad again.
Recovery? Fuck it.
I want to feel good about myself again.
Anonymous asked: you wont nessesarily lose weight doing the 30ds, but you do lose inches.. keep that in mind
Did lose inches AND weight. Keep in mind that results can be different for everyone
shayoomty asked: wow .. how did you lose weight?
Eating really really clean (eventually becoming a short lived vegetarian) and a lot of exercise!
maiyamm asked: hi i just want to ask you also did the 30day shred right? how many pounds have u lost in that program ? thank you
Over the period of 20 days it helped me lose over 12 lbs
trytobeskinnyminnie asked: Heyy:( do you have bulimia or anorexia or EDNOS? Love ur blog!!
Going back and forth bet Bulimia Nervosa and Anorexia Nervosa.
very long story, if anyone is interested, message me.